transitions

wow, august already?! i can't believe camp is over. i dropped the camp staff off at the airport last night, couldn't find a parking space, left the car in the street, hugged them all goodbye, and was finally back in my own bed in my room alone for the first time in more than two months.

this summer ended as quickly as it began.

on the way home from the airport i remembered worrying and fretting over getting tasks done and supplies bought. i laughed at how it was all useless worry as camp was amazing this summer and i couldn't even remember what i did and didn't get completed before it started.

so now i'm on to packing, relaxing (a little), and saying goodbye to nairobi. a week from today i'll be landing in atlanta. then sometime soon after that i'll be headed up to missoula. wow, i'm so nervous, anxious, afraid, worried. hopefully i'll be on the other side of this next adventure and laugh at how worried i was. funny how i keep forgetting that God always takes care of me.

Little BlueSky

last week we had a "break" from camp. but, don't you worry, we weren't resting too much. we spent monday and tuesday with Made in the Streets in Eastleigh and at their farm in Kamulu. what an encouraging organization. they are storming into hell and bringing bits of heaven to some "hopeless" children. we walked around the streets of the Eastleigh slum visiting the "bases" where the street children live. these aren't houses or shacks like you might think, but they are homes. most of them are just spots on the street. some of them have a tarp or plastic piece covering a spot where a young person might sleep. we walked around visiting these homes with some of the staff at Eastleigh (many of whom are former street children). we talked and prayed with people learning about their life and struggles. poverty and homelessness are complex social problems. it was good for our camp staff to learn more about all this. it's also very encouraging to know and be a part of an organization doing something about it and doing it well. MITS provides services to help young people break their addiction to drugs, provides education, a safe place to stay, food to eat, and job training. there is a system and a process and it seems to be successful. find out more about MITS here.

after our two days there, the rest of the week was spent doing a day camp for younger campers aged 4-7. we also had a "high functioning 3 year old." maybe not so high functioning. but oh so cute. :)
we did almost the same activities as big BlueSky, but catered to younger children. we only had a few melt downs each day. i'd say that was pretty good. the campers LOVED it and asked us to do it again and again. we also had several thank you phone calls from parents. we're excited and hopeful to do it again!

half of our staff did a Little BlueSky program at a nearby school called Uzimatele in a local slum area. it was also VERY well received by the children, staff, and community. and greatly enjoyed by our staff.

now we are in session 2 of camp. I LOVE CAMP. i was drinking my ethiopian coffee this cool morning while walking through camp and could hear "the duck song" echoing from a distance. couldn't help but think, 'how can i live without this?' i sure will miss days of weird lukenya breakfast foods (spicy meat pies today), delicious coffee brewed in my room, cool mornings and blazing hot days and nights, and sweet children singing about Jesus. but i know there's a bigger plan in play here and my next move is to go away from here for a while. i trust and believe it will be good. even sweeter than it is right now.

and now for some big news... BACK TO SCHOOL! (also some old pictures)

here are some recent pictures! enjoy!

I have an awesome job that let's me wake up to a houseful of sweet middle school girls on Saturday mornings. :)

I made this yummy chocolate pie on Easter. It was Nana's recipe. Everyone loved it!

we made these confetti eggs for youth group. they're filled with rice and we smashed them on each other's heads. 

for Rosslyn's prom we had about 12 girls come over to get ready at our house. we served them water and made it like a little spa. SO FUN to be a part of their special day!

and then the boys came over to pic up the girls. then an hour long photo shoot ensued in our backyard. there were probably 60 people at our house!

 graduation day for some sweet sweet (now young adults) kids that i've known since 7th grade. LOVE these guys and girls. what an encouragement they've been to me!

and this is camp staff week. oh camp! so weird/awesome/crazy/fun/indescribable. 

and on with the exciting news...

FINALLY, after talking about it for years, praying over it, being afraid, being excited, studying a lot for the GRE, reading online about teachers, programs, and college towns, i have finally been accepted and have committed to graduate school. finally! i made a decision and i'm going with it. in August i'll be beginning a masters program in Intercultural Youth and Family Development at the University of Montana. it's one year on campus in Missoula and two years in a cross cultural internship with the Peace Corps. 

i'm pretty scared, don't know how i'll pay for it, and don't know where i'll live or who i'll hang out with.... but i know it's the right thing. i never expected to get accepted. i am heart broken over the idea of leaving Kenya and Camp BlueSky. but, again, i know it's the right thing. all along i prayed and said to friends that i'll just keep going until the door closes. and the doors have yet to close. :) ha! Montana (and then Peace Corps) here i come! 

camp is here!

from a recent email to my supporters...


Camp has begun! Things are going really well in Nairobi right now.  We have an outstanding group of counselors this year! I was amazed at how well they all did with first session of camp: so much energy and love for the campers! First session went VERY well! We ended up having nearly 60 campers which is almost double last years enrollment! Praise be to God!

RESCUE.
Our theme for this summer of camp is Rescue, Colossians 1:13-14 “For he has rescued us from the dominion of darkness into the Kingdom of His beloved Son, in whom we have redemption, the forgiveness of sins.” It’s been a joy and blessing to share this message with staff and campers. We’ve talked about creation, Adam and Eve, and the fall of mankind; Moses and God rescuing His people from slavery; Jonah who was rescued and pursued by God even when he tried to flee God; Shadrach, Meshach, and Abednego, who were rescued in the fire when they refused to worship another god; Jesus and His ultimate rescue of mankind; and finally Paul and how God rescued him and rescued so many through Paul’s radical faith in Jesus. We’ve shared out own stories of being rescued and have loved on and encouraged each other and our campers.

Right now we are having a short break from camp and serving alongside a Andrew’s (Conway’s. Andrew joined our full time team in January, but he grew up in Nairobi and has been a part of camp and student ministry since he was in middle school) parents in an urban slum in Nairobi. Our counselors are learning about poverty firsthand by spending time with street children in the streets and at a wonderful centre where the children safely go to school, learn a trade, and live in peace.  This weekend (Wednesday, Thursday and Friday) we will for the very first time have a day camp for younger children. Little BlueSky will be held at Rosslyn Academy from 9-1 each day and will introduce 4-7 year old children to some of the rich traditions and crazy fun of Camp BlueSky. Pray with us that this week would go well. Please pray for our safety traveling in the city and our wisdom and love as we care for small children.

After this week it’s back to camp for us as session II begins on Sunday 12 June. We are already around 80 campers and are hoping for more! This session is going to be awesome I just know it! This is the session where most of the children are from the international school. Many of them haven’t been exposed to authentic Christianity. Pray for our hearts and the hearts of our campers second session. Pray that we’ll all be open to hearing from God. Also pray that we will experience and share the love, hope, and peace of Jesus.



I also have some very BIG NEWS that i'll post about hopefully later today. :) But if you're reading this, then you probably already received the email. 


love, Amanda

over coffee this morning: belong

Fading memories ignored
I crawl across the forest floor
Pool reflects an orphan child
Dirty, lost, alone and wild
Fatherless and nameless still
Fallen heart and broken, will
There ever be a place where I belong?


I cower 'neath the monster trees
And try to stand on broken feet
But gravity knocks me to the ground,
Where I give up and tears roll down.
I claw the dust and beg the end
And curse the day that I began
To hope there'd be a place where I belong

The lyrics to this song have been favorites of mine for several years. I somehow just connect with these words. I often feel like this "orphan child: dirty, lost, alone and wild." I mean, I know I'm no longer this child, but it's so easy to slip back into this despair. Sometimes when my heart breaks and I'm tired of being tired and tired of doing my life and thinking my thoughts (you know what I mean, right?) I can feel myself collapsing "'neath the monster trees," and "claw[ing] the dust." Most of the time, I see this space from the other side:

I hear a sound I recognize
You lift my chin and seek my eyes
A song of love you sing to me
I ache to sing it back to Thee
"Father love prepares a place,
Brother Jesus leads the way
Follow to the place where you belong!"

I actually think this happens to us over and over in life. I mean, our following Jesus, our being rescued, our salvation is an ongoing process, and ongoing realization and understanding. I'm coming to understand that our rescue is in the following of Jesus and in the (slowly) realizing and understanding that we belong to God and He's singing His song of love over us.

This morning over a few delicious cups of coffee I was part of a book discussion/Bible study with some beautiful young women. We are reading Abba's Child by Brennan Manning. Actually, they've been reading it. I joined today at chapter 4 having read only the first few pages of chapter one. :) We talked about how as believers in and followers of Christ we are children of God. God created us and loves us, not in spite of our selves, our sin, and our brokenness, but including all that and all that we are. We discussed what life would be like for us if we could live in and operate under this belief and understanding all the time. We talked about how some of us read about and studied cases of abused children who have attachment disorders. Abused children who grow up without believing they are loved by their parents have a really hard time accepting love from and forming attachments to anyone. They lie, cheat, and act out in various ways that reflect their mistrust of everyone and everything. We realized that because of our broken nature and broken hearts we are sometimes like this; having a hard time accepting God's love because we know we are imperfect.

BUT, through it all and all our experiences and surroundings and through His people and His word God is trying to tell us otherwise:

How did I miss this wondrous song?
The forest sang it all along
"River rinses all your shame
Father offers you his name
Father love prepares a home
Brother Jesus leads you on,
Follow to the place where you belong."


"Father love prepares and place
Brother Jesus leads the way
Follow to the place where you belong
Follow to the place where you belong."

Belong by Chris Rice
(go look it up! the melody is beautiful!)


So, I don't believe that I have the absolutely correct theology about everything. I sometimes feel like I don't "get" God at all. And I certainly don't understand the mystery of His love for me and how that works. But I want to believe He does love me. And most of the time I find myself looking at my moments (or days, weeks, months) of despair and feeling like the author in the last verse of the song, "How did I miss this wondrous song?! The forest sang it all along... "

Hope this is encouraging to you too and it's not an over-share. :)

Here are some pictures from our garden. This is what it looks like right now...
The tree branches and palm leaf things are Patrick's help for the tomato plants. We're thinking they'll grow up the sticks... Also, there are a lot more tomato plants than I planted. And my whole system of squares got messed up when Zoey (the Ridgeback) broke the fence and dug all through the garden just 20 minutes after I'd planted everything. Thanks, Zoey. So there are random plants everywhere. Florah, our housekeeper, thinks it's really funny that I tried to be so organized and it backfired. But on Saturdays she supervises me in the garden. :) At any rate, things are growing!!!

But then there's this guy...

I'm gonna try spraying the leaves with hot pepper juice...

This has been Michelle's and my workspace during spring break. We were the only ones here while everyone else went on some adventures. So we took our office outside and enjoyed the sun in our backyard! We also took 2 hour lunch breaks every day and went swimming. 

"home is where the heart is," but what if that's several places?

i'm back in town! ...Nairobi, that is. and I brought Michelle with me!

what a treat to travel with someone! we had an ordinary trip back to nairobi, save for a killer migraine in Amsterdam. so sorry to Michelle's sweet friend whom we met for breakfast. i was trying not to puke or pass out the whole time. i swear i'm a nice person on a normal day.

when i got to GA i got right down to the serious business of hanging out with family and friends. i just can't get enough of my GA family.

Haley, Emily, and I went to a Berry/Shorter lacrosse match... yeah... we didn't stay long... Berry was dominating and Haley was embarrassed of her school. or we were bored, same thing. sorry, Hay, i know your hair has a funny wind blowin' thing going on, but you are still beautiful!

sarah, monnie, and i went to her parents lovely mountain cabin in blue ridge. then spent the day playing on the ocoee. i will forever be grateful to monnie's parents for that sweet retreat we get each year.

don't worry, friends, i also did some work here and there. (this is me telling them about Kenya, i think. see how everyone's looking in my direction? work, see?)

we had a great staff retreat at WinShape in Georgia! i am so thankful! this was probably one of the best ever! i'm really excited about working with this year's camp staff. there are some really cool guys and girls. (another shot of them listening to me. they are so interested. :) )

and that's not even all of them, folks! there are like 7 more who aren't pictured here!

after staff retreat I was SO fortunate to make a trip up to Portland to see my dear dear sister, MEGA! hooray!

it was cold... and we hiked... in the ice/snow/slush/rain... obviously this is my first experience with the pacific northwest.

what a fantastic tour guide megan was. the theme of my trip was good food, good drink, and good friends. i swear we ate out for nearly every meal. all of megan's favorite portland places are restaurants. and i "just had" to try this and that at every place. oh, how i love that girl!

and i finally saw the west coast!!! i was so happy i nearly cried. yeah, meg made fun of me.

a few more bittersweet farewells to my family...

emma and i have a similar sense of humor

the sibs (on dad's side). we're so shiny and special we glow.

so now i am back in nairobi working on camp and finishing up the semester of youth group. i'm looking forward to making some final memories with some of the awesome students i'm so blessed to share life with.

AND i'm so excited about camp this year. have i said that yet? we've got a killer leadership team with some great new ideas and lots of organization. and our staff are going to rock the program our leadership team creates! i wish you could meet them all!

today, though, it's spring break and Michelle and i are the only ones in town. so we took a few hours mid day between meetings, emails, and errands to swim some laps and then lay by the pool at Rosslyn. thank you rosslyn for having an awesome pool and including us in your community! we are so well taken care of. :)

"swing me way down south" and northwest for a week

i'm such a hypocrite. i said i wouldn't let a month go by before i updated. i let TWO months get past me. oh well. here's an attempted post from, oh, let's see, FEBRUARY 16! ha! sorry if i missed you in Atlanta or Portland.

youth group leadership team planning meeting for spring semester

i'm sitting in Amsterdam at Schipol airport waiting for my flight to JFK! it's been delayed an hour. which makes my 3 hour layover at JFK only 2 hours. and i have to reclaim my luggage, clear customs, re-check my luggage, find my gate, and board a plane to Atlanta. oh, i hope this all happens very smoothly. we'll see...

i'm currently headed to Atlanta (Rome, more specifically) for the Camp BlueSky 2011 summer staff retreat. we've been preparing and planning, interviewing and hiring, and it looks like we're almost all ready to go for a fabulous weekend. i'm stoked to meet everyone and get started on this summer of camp. i am sure an update and pictures will follow.

my days are currently filled with youth group planning and doing, a weekly Bible study with some girls from ISK, twice weekly meetings before school with students, and much much much camp prep. we are now meeting every other week for program updates from our specific areas.

Lexi arrived and registration for camp started the following week. we were able to set up a table at Rosslyn to register campers both before and after school. it was fun and lots of kids have already signed up. let's hope and pray we'll have more.

we also are on the schedule to set up a table two days this semester at the school store at ISK. this will be another amazing recruiting and networking opportunity. please pray we'll have a great turn out there too.

Lexi is not only a beautiful and sweet new friend, but she's doing a FAB job at camp registration. just making things better and better.

if you're in the Rome or Atlanta area in the next 3 weeks please please let me know! i'd love to see you. also, i'm going to Portland, OR to visit a few dear friends and do a little daydreaming. :)